June 03, 2011

Image of China - La Chine en image


China was a great three weeks; it is certainly a very beautiful country.  The sceneries are breath taking, the landscapes are all worthy of a postcard.  Traveling by train was beautiful, going to caves in old minivans was great, and again the sceneries were just movie like.  The big cities are like any big cities, yet somewhere there is still an old fashion market where you can find anything for very cheap.  The country side was my favourite, so beautiful, so slow and so easy going.

Here are a few images, I hope it can represent little what I have seen.

Metta,
Charles

Chine

May 16, 2011

The end of a journey, the beganning of a new one.



I didn't write for a while, my blog was blocked from China so I couldn't post anything, and since I am in Montreal I didn't feel ready to write about the end of my journey.

China was great, it looked similar to Thailand or Malaysia to me on the surface, not quite as I had imagined it. Of course in culture it is different, and the fact that I was travelling with a Chinese contributed for me to see it diffrently then the two previous.

I visited many beautiful places, went on a couple of tours, eat weird food, eat lots of great food, and enjoyed most of it. Some pictures will come eventually with more information about where I went and all.

Since I'm back in Montreal I have spend a few days feeling a bit under the weather. Of course it was raining for the first week which didn't help. It was an amazing journey, I am so glade I have done it, now I am ready for the new journey to start.

As I look back on my trip India remains my favorite place and, it is was certainly my best time out of my 7 months journey. I think you can all tell by the tone and the content of my posts that India was were I was able to go within, connect with myself, reflect uppon life. There was other moments when I felt similarly, my 10 days retreat in Thailand was certainly one, but also my few weeks in Laos, and my time alone in Thailand were beautiful moments of introspections. Yet nothing seams to compare to India when I think back about it all. If I were to do this trip again, I would certainly stay longer in India, but it's ok, I'll go back for sure!

It is hard to put into words the emotions that surfaces when I think about my trip, I feel like for ever it will impact my outlook on things and people. I am forever greatful for all the amazing people and places that were on my path. I think saying that I feel older is the closest thing to explain how I feel. Like many years of life experiences were combine in a few months journey. I have learn about myself so much more then I could have in a few years of not paying attention. I hope from now one I will always stay alert and pay attention to my life.

If there is one thing I really would like to offer as a reflection, is that life is meant to be lived! We are meant to grow! Love is universal, everyone is the same, we are all one! Stop living for others, have the courage to be who you want to be, have the courage to live for yourself. Instead of focusing on other people's flaws and complaining about everyone and everything, have the courage to become a better version of who you are. By becoming a better version of who we are, by wanting to change ourselves instead of asking others to change, we contribute to a better world, a better tomorrow. We also contribute to influence others to do the same, by example, by suggesting, not forcing.

This was my 100th post since I have started this journey, there will be more, with pictures from China and maybe from Montreal.

I wish you all an amazing day!
Lots of Metta your way!

Don't worry,
Be Happy!!!




April 20, 2011

Des nouvelles!

Bonjour à tous, juste pour vous dire que je n'ai pas accès à Facebook de la Chine, ni à mon blog.  Tout va super bien, plus de détails à mon retour prévus à la fin avril.  (J'ai demandé à une amie via courriel de mettre ce message)

Hello, just a quick word to let you know all is good.  I don't have access to Facebook from China nor my blog, so more news when I return, end of April.  (I asked a friend to put this message up)

Lots of love!
Je vous aime!

April 05, 2011



I never thought my journey would bring me to discover so much of Asia, so many cities, countries and cultures.  I feel blessed, I am thankful; life is always full of surprises for me, I love it.  Like Osho teaches, if you let yourself go and follow the flow, life will take care of you, you will always be exactly where you have to be, all your needs will be met, etc.  If I would not have met Eddy in Bangkok a few months ago, I would probably have not planed to come to Malaysia, I would have explored more of Thailand instead.  If Stephanie had not decided to come to visit me and travel with me for 12 days, I would not be sitting here writing this now.  Here is a great, big, somewhat luxurious hotel downtown Singapore

What you have to know is that Singapore is the most expensive country I have been in since I’m travelling.  If I would have come here on my own I would not have stayed downtown, I would not have stayed in a hotel with a gym, a pool, a bar, a restaurant, a tennis courts, a putter green, and more.  No worries, I will take pictures of this place, it is beautiful!  I also would not have stayed downtown, who knows, I would maybe have not even have come to Singapore because of how much everything cost.  Being two helps with certain costs, but also Stephanie is paying for our stay at this hotel.  Thanks Steph!  Thank you life!

Which brings me to my reflection of the day, why is it so hard to receive?  What part of me has been trained to feel… not sure of the exact feeling actually, but I have a hard time just accepting it with a smile, I guess I feel guilt of some sort, when I receive?  Stephanie is more then happy to be here, she wanted a great hotel and a great location and would have paid a similar price coming here on her own, and she is happy to be with me here, plus she can afford it.  So why is it hard for me to accept that I am not paying have of the bill?  We’ve been friend for years, we never counted between us, on small things of course, but it’s always been easy with money between us.  With some people you count and make sure to split half of the cost all the time.  With Steph it’s always been easy.  I would give, I would pay, she would give, she would pay, no keeping track, just pure friendship and loving energy being exchange.  But to be in such a place and not pay my share, I can’t help but to feel a little guilt.  So I guess life is giving me this opportunity to learn about myself, to learn a new lesson.  It is ok to receive; it is ok to be the one who is being taken care of.  I should just enjoy the process, and this is what I will have to learn in the next few days.  So again, thank you life and thank you Steph!

It has been 6 months that I am gone on the 22nd of March, when I think about it I’m not sure how to put into words all that it has been.  It wasn’t like I imagined it to be, not that I planed it very much, but to a certain degree I had expectations.  I wanted to learn more about yoga, and I was somewhat hoping to meet some sort of a spiritual teacher to learn more about myself.  These were my two expectations when I left.  I learned more about yoga by practicing it more, on my own, and my spiritual teacher was my time alone, my reflections, my writing, and many different people I have met.  I did learn about yoga with some of the teachers that I have went to during my travel, and I had great teachings out of the many books that I have red, during my travel and during the past 15 years or so, which help with introspections and reflections.  Life, the greater whole, the bigger process, is an amazing teacher when you take the time to pay attention.  I have learned so much in the last six months, I sincerely hope I will be able to put this all into practice as I come back into “society”.


April 6th, in Melaka, Malaysia

We have come back to Malaysia yesterday by bus, found a nice little hotel with a balcony in the hart of Chinatown in Melaka.  It seams like a nice little town, by the water, but at this point I haven’t quite explored it yet.  Travelling with Stephanie is easy, we disagree on AC versus fan, I’m always cold, she is always hot, but for the rest all is good.  Singapore was definitely out of my budget, for some of the activities that we did, but no regrets what so ever.  We have taken a cable gondola from Singapore to a remote island, where the Aquarium of Singapore is, that was an amazing little ride over water and by the city. The aquarium itself was like any other, but the underwater tunnel was great.  One of my best moments was taking what they call the “Singapore Flyer”, 165 meters high, it is kind of a 30 minute feeris wheel ride overlooking Singapore, and we had the luck of making it for sunset, it was beautiful!!!

Anyway, much more to tell of course, but not much more time, only 5 days to go before I head out to China, so lets focus on experiencing the city for today.  Very hot day today, I love it!

Take care beautiful souls!

Charles

Here are many pics of Singapore... and these are just a few of what I took!!!

Enjoy

March 31, 2011

A few pics from Kuala Lumpur...

Hello everyone, I hope you are all doing well.  I love Kuala Lumpur, it is a beautiful city.  1.6 Million people, greater urban area is over 7 Million, so it is a big city!  Love the feel of it, does't feel to electric even if it is that big.

So not going to write to long, but wanted to share some pictures, let my dad all is going well.  Leaving for Singapore in two days, really excited!

Stephanie has join me today, we walked through town and she treated me to an amazing meal, thank you life for such great friends!  Thank you Stephanie!

Here are a few pics!


Kuala Lumpur

Metta!

March 28, 2011

Mon Dieu que la vie est belle!

Bonjour à tous, un post en français aujourd'hui, juste parce que!

À Sungai Petani depuis quelques jours, hier j'ai passé la journée à Penang, une grande isle à une heure de route d'ici.  On a surtout visité la région touristique, un peu plus urbaine.  Le soleil était de la partie, journée chaude et humide, tout était parfait!  On a visité le petit musé de la ville qui relate entre autre l'histoire de la Malaisie et surtout de l'isle, bien intéressant.  On a beaucoup marché à travers la ville et j'ai vraiment eu un moment magique dans le cartier très Indien, je me sentais en Inde tout d'un coup, la musique, l'odeur des épices et de la bouffe et bien sûr plein d'indiens tout partout!  Faut savoir que la Malaisie à une grosse population Indienne.  Une soirée cinéma à conclus la journée, ce fut une très belle journée, quoique bien touristique!

Ce soir je prends un train de nuit vers Kuala Lampur, une grande ville urbain, bien moderne.  Je suis tout excité, le 31 Stéphanie Monty vient m'y rejoindre pour 11 jours!!!  C'est une très bonne amie de Montréal, depuis plus de 12 ans, j'ai bien hâte de la revoir!  Pas de plans précis mais probablement se rendre à Singapur pour encore plus de "vibe" urbaines, voir même méga-urbaines.

Rien d'autre de nouveau, mon poignet est pratiquement guéri, plus de douleur, un peu de rougeur et c'est tout.

Voici des photos des derniers jours:


Sungai Petani & Penang Island

Plein d'amour et de vibrations positives!!!

Metta!!

Charles

March 27, 2011

Quelques photos et un vidéo de Hat Yai

Just a quick post to say that all is well, not much more to report.  Life here is good, today the sun was part of the game, that felt good!  I have been in Sungai Petani for three days now, I have met with a friend who lives here, that I have met in Bangkok two months ago.  He is Malay and have a nice house here.  I am lucky that he has welcomed me to his place for a few days.  The modern comfort is almost strange to me.  Washing machine, hot showers, car, cooking food, preparing coffee, what luxuries!  We take little things of the everyday modern life for granted, and then we also get use not to have these little things, but when we get them back we realize how much we appreciate them.  I mean, I don't mind washing my clothes by hand, but I can never squeeze as much water out of them then any washing machine can, thus cutting the drying time by more then half!  Also, making coffee the way I like it, and you all know how I can be picky on my coffee if I get the chance, I love it!  Today I even both fresh coffee for my host, I can't wait until tomorrow morning.  Did you know that they Malay coffee is only 55% coffee, the rest is sugar and... margarine!!!  There is a Starbuck in town, so I went to get some fresh beens tonight, got them grounded, and tomorrow morning will be ecstasy!

We have visited Penang Island, it is the tourist spot around here, where people go to do a quick renewal of their Thai visa.  It was nice, we went to the beach, and if you read my last post, I got sting by a jelly fish on the inside of my left wrist.  It hurts like crazy!!!  Two days later of putting some cortisone cream on it feels better.  I still have a big red mark, but the inflammation is gone and most of the pain.  So I will repeat this, peeing on it will not help.  Salt water to rinse it on the spot is the best thing, should you have vinegar on hand that could help too.  But know that a few species of jelly fish's poison will not be stopped by vinegar, it will make it worst, so not much to do!  Anyway, it got all swollen quickly, a can of cold coke helped to reduce the inflammation until we found a pharmacy, there I got the cream and some pills to fight the pain and the coming itchiness.

I will only post one pic for now, I did take a few but nothing to interesting, mostly souvenirs.  Here is a pic of my sandal after a fight with an automatic escalator!  It literally eat my sandal!!!


I wish you all an amazing day!
Until next time, with more pics!

xx

Big hug,
Metta!

Happy Charles in Malaysia!

March 25, 2011

Totally in love with this song... pay attention to the lyrics - Plus.. I peed in myself today... read the story!

Also a quick note to say all is well here in Sungain Petani, Malaysia.  Today I went to visit Penang, got stung by a gelly fish on my left wrists.  All is good, but it still burns at this point.  Even though it is a popular belief to pie on it, it does not work.  After research tonight, I know I shouldn't have done that, but didn't know at the time.  Bought some cream, all will be better with time.  Tomorrow leaving for Langkawi Island, hoping for nice weather!

Take care all!

big hug!

March 22, 2011

From Kho Phangan to Hat Yai, what a ride.

So 6am is wake up time, to finish to pack my bag and leave for a 10 minute scooter ride from my little cottage to returning the scooter and hoping on a 2.5 hour boat ride.  It’s a smaller boat then the one I took to get to the Kho Phangan, no cars on this one, fast too.  Once we get to destination, we are directed in various buses which will take us to our respective destination or, like in my case, to where I’ll get into a mini bus to Hat Yai.  One and a half our of bus brings us to a mini food, toilet and ticket place, where we are all directed to our mini bus to finish the journey to our destination.  I go to the toilet, so I’m the last one on the mini bus, so I get to sit in the front, between the driver and his colleague or friend.  Middle seat of the front of a van/mini bus, not to much room for the legs, no head rest and AC directly on me, it’ll be a long 4.5 hours I’m thinking.  I take a breath and tell myself it is just another experience, all will be good.

His dashboard is worth a movie scene, so many little things are on this dash I don’t know where to start to describe this.  First there is layers over layers of little flower braded together hanging from the mirror, then on the driver side this are piles of what seams to be maps, receipts, CD cases, a pack of gum, a pack of cigarettes, crayons, and some other papers of some kind.  The rest of the dash is a village of little creature, fake, thank God, but moving.  Little plastic creatures with the limbs moving with the rocking of the van on the road, standing on a spring, so dancing as well which seams to give them a bit of life or personality.  Insects, a crab, two turtles, a few birds and a character from what could be a Walt Disney movie are the main interests of the scene.  Amongst them, a few car fresheners, that are certainly no longer fresh, and a few other things not worthy to describe.  The dash is 80% covered, I feel like everything has its own story, that I could be entertained for the ride if they could talk.

I have spent the last two days with a guy that I have met during my Acro Yoga classes.  Guillaum, niked name Yoda, a very interesting fellow, and we connected because of our interest in energy healing and meditation.  He has been practicing Theta Healing for a while and was going on about how it changed his life.  So we agreed to meet to share knowledge, he would do some Theta Healing on me and teach me about it and I would do some Reiki Healing and teach him about it.  Two beautiful days, meditating, discussing about life and “healing” one another.  It was great, I love this new technique of meditation, it resonate with me a lot, it is a little less technical then the method that I was thought during me 10 days retreat, closer to what I used to do with Reiki or even during my Yoga meditation.

I have not gone to the full moon party on the Saturday, by 10 pm I was falling asleep, not feeling like partying and not feeling like being in a crowd of drunken and high people.  The next day I met a few people that told me I didn’t miss out on anything, it was too crowded, people were all young and partying out hard, jumping and bumping on each other, etc…  It got me to think that I most have grown older in the last few years, I still think I’m no more then 25 most of the time, I still feel like 40 is close to “older” then me, but I guess I have to realize that I will be 35 in a few months.  Wow!  I’m lucky and happy to be enjoying my life, because I am not ready to be old, even if people that are 25 starts to say stuff to me like: “People your age”.  “People my age!!!”  I hear myself react!  Fuck, I did get older.  Well, at least most people that I have met thought I was more around 29-30, I guess I’ll keep that as a comfort.

It’s been raining almost everyday in the last 5 days or so, so I have not been able to go finish my PADI (diving) certification.  I could have gone but visibility was not good in the water, so what was the use of spending that money I thought.  I am hoping to dive in Malaysia now, I have look up a few site, lets see how that unfolds.

Hat Yai should be a traditional little Thai town with not much happening but the night market.  It used to be happening more, but since 2004 the political situation has slowed the travelers from coming to it.  I’m not to sure what the issue is actually, for those of you who know me well, you know that I don’t take to much interest in the political stuff.  Something about religion and land, not to sure, but all as been calm for a while, it should be ok.  Dad, no worries, I will be there one or two nights and all will be fine.  We bring our way what we send out, only good will come my way, no worries.  So must people go to Hat Yai to make there way to Malaysia, some of them for what is called a visa run, which means to renew a Thai visa, and some of them to travel more south, like me.

At this point I have been in this mini bus, or big van, how ever you want to call this, for close to an hour only and my ass is already numb.  I do have my lap top on me and have kept pretty still since we left, but with the leg room I’ve got, not to much options either!  Plus at this point the passenger to my left, because the driver is to my right here, is sleeping with his leg pressing against mine.  Now the rain has started again!  What a ride, I love it!  Such beautiful moments!

Have you ever stop to think why life seams short sometimes?  I think it is because we keep living the same day, the same week or the same month over and over.  When we look back at the last few years everything seams like a flash, but those moments that were different.  Some of these moments being big events, like weddings, a new birth, a vacation or something like that.  So I think we need moments that will stay in our memory to make life look longer.  I am thankful for the last 6 months, it sometimes feel like I have been gone over a year now, and one of the reason is probably the lack of routine.

So I just arrived in Hat Yai, my ass needed the rest, found the guest house I wanted and now am updating on the web while there is a big shower (rain).

Looking forward for the night market tonight, cheap sushi and maybe find my dad a little something.  I am not satisfied with what I have for him as a souvenir quite yet.

Well, here are a few more pics from Kha Phangan.

Take care until my next post!

All is good!


Kho Phangan Part 2

March 17, 2011

Acro Yoga

I said I would going to a Acro Yoga class today, well this is somewhat we we did today.  More on Saturday, exciting stuff!

Take care!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nu0YrsHvJRM

March 16, 2011

Kho Phangan is amazing, beautiful, and I am loving it!!!




Since I came out of my meditation retreat I have spend one day in Chiaya, two days in Surat Thani and took a boat two days ago to this beautiful island.

I have enjoyed Surat Thani a lot because it is not very touristy, it has kept his “traditional” vibe, most people don’t speak English and it doesn’t have any tourist attraction per say.  I loved it!  Walked for hours visiting, got lost, totally lost north, ended up 30 minutes walk further then I thought I was and I had to take my dictionary out and play guess the word with a local girl to find my way back.  When she figured out where I wanted to go she told me, you can’t walk there, too far!  And it was just a 30-40 minute walk.  It is something I have notice about both India and Thailand, people don’t walk long distance to much, whenever it is over half a kilometer they always suggest I can’t walk, need a taxi they say.  I have also enjoyed the night market a lot, which is a popular thing in Thailand, around 4PM some of the streets starts to get filled with temporary shops, food stall and all sorts of things are for sale everywhere you look.  People seams to enjoy the gathering, the shopping, the eating, etc… I love it, especially in a place where there are mostly local people.  “Special price for you today, lucky, lucky, first customer, good price, lucky for you, lucky for me; tell me, tell me, how much you can pay?!  Ok, ok, just for you, half price, you take it?  How many you want?”  So much fun!!!

5:45AM, I wake up in panic, I turned my alarm off and didn’t get up on time.  My bag is not packed and I have to be gone in 15 minutes!!!  I rush in and out of a cold shower, stuff my bag in an unorganized way, and walk as fast as I can to the bus station for 6:15, ouff, sweaty already but on time.  15 minutes later I am in a freezing AC bus, for a one hour ride to the boat, almost a 3 hour boat ride then brings me to Kha Phangan, beautiful island where I am still now.  I rented a scooter at the boat jetty and left with a mini map to find myself a place to stay for a few days.  After 3 hours of searching I finally found a nice little room, mini cottage on my own, as big as my room and bathroom, by the beach, with a hammock on the front balcony, no ocean view but hey, that’s all good!

Life here is slow and good, I drove all around the island yesterday, found mask and tuba for snorkeling in a second hand shop, for $7, so went snorkeling, and went for a good back and shoulder massage, and was lucky this guy was great!  I don’t think I commented to much about thai massage in Thailand, but I have to say I was mostly disappointed with the ones offered everywhere to the tourists.  Now I understand why some people say that after 2-3 three they don’t feel like going again, and also why they say it hurts!  Most of these people, mostly girls, get one or two weeks training and they offer 5-10 massages a day to tourist, in a very routine way.  Not paying attention to the body, not “feeling” which muscles need more love, not questioning about your needs, etc… So you end up have a very mechanic massage, often done at a rapid pace and a bit painful.  So I stopped walking in these places and taking massage anytime.  I started questioning for good spots and got recommendations when possible.  But yesterday I didn’t know, but one place was called Cosmic Energy massage, which of course resonated with me.  I walked in and explained that I was a massage practitioner and that I was very hard to satisfied, with a grin on my face, and then asked her if she had anyone good to help with the pain in my back and shoulders.  She said yes with confidence and sent me to that little young guy, looking no more then 22 year old I would guess, and to my surprise he was quite good!  After 10 days of sitting meditation and sleeping on a wooden bed, I needed a good massage.

This afternoon I am going to a acro-yoga class, where yoga meets Thai massage and acrobacy, not to sure what I’m getting myself into but it should be lots of fun.  That will be followed by an herbal steam bath, and a nice noodle soup for a light diner.  After a few more days here I will head more south where I will be able to take a train to Malaysia.  I will be in Malaysia until the 11th of April, on the 11th I am taking a plan to China for three weeks there before coming back to Canada.  I’m starting to feel the end of this journey get close but I am at peace with it.  I have learned so much about myself, I have had such amazing moments of sharing with beautiful people met on my way, I feel blessed, like I mentioned a few times.

Again, thanks for reading, commenting, caring, etc… lots of love your way beautiful souls!  Blessings, blessings, and Metta!!!

Charles


Here are a few online albums, some older pics, some more recent.  I hope it will work well, first time I try it this way.

Enjoy!




Kho Phangan - 16 mars 2011

Me enjoying a cake and coffee the day I came out of my 10 days retreat.


Bangkok

Surat Thani

My ten days retreat - Part 2 - My reflections

Here is a pic of my bed and room during my retreat:



Here are some learnings and reflections that I would love to share with you:

We had a talk on attachment, according to Buddhism, we should try to remain free of attachment.  As the monk was naming certain attachment that we have, like money, success, our things – house, car, computer, etc – our activities, what other people think of us, and our opinion.  That one got me thinking a lot, some people are so attached to there opinion and idea.  How certain people can argue, to a point of making you feel stupid just to have you agree with there idea or opinion.  Why do we have an attachment toward our own opinion?  Why do we have this need to be right?  After all each one of us is different, is experiencing life differently.  It is ok to share a point of view, but arguing over it, over who is right, who is wrong, takes away the chance to learn from one another.  Some people argue to prove their point to a point where they stop listening to the point of the other person.  Then instead of learning from the conversation it becomes a boxing match of arguments until one finds the strategy to prove him/herself right or the other one wrong; one is a winner, one is a loose.  We get so caught up in the argumentation that we forget the goal of the exchange, of the conversation.  We forget that we could learn from someone else’s point of view and experience.  In extreme situation, it can even lead to resentment, a lost of a friend, so on and so forth.  Challenging each other’s thought is good; fighting for who is right and who is wrong… we miss the point.  If winning an argument means hurting someone we love, losing a friend or lover, what have we really won, and was it worth the price of the lost?  Being a “looser” to make someone feel good is sometime being a winner, being the greater man or women.  On top of that it teaches us humility.

Why is it so important to be right anyway?  Remember that an opinion is meant to be shared, not forced upon someone, and an advice is meant to be given, not taken.  The truth, reality and experience of someone is not necessarily the truth for someone else.  Each person has to make there own experience and figure out there on truth.  One thing that I like about Buddhism, is not to believe anyone, to experience for yourself and find your own truth.  Buddha said, don’t believe me, just try what I teach and see if it works for you; such a wise way of sharing one’s experience.  He didn’t have the need to be right, his ego was out of the way, he just wanted to share what he thought could help others.

We also heard a lot of stuff on sufferings, it is a big part of the teaching of Buddha, to stay away from suffering, but in a different way we could think of it.  For example if we like going to the movies we could decide to stop going, so we don’t crave it any more, so we don’t suffer through the craving.  It is a very simplified version of the teaching, but in a nutshell it is a bit of what is thought.  This brought me to think about expectations and how they lead to disappointment.  It is inevitable.  Expectations towards ourselves, an event or someone else will very likely be fully fulfilled, thus we will end up feeling a certain disappointment.  When we expect we are not letting ourselves go with the process, we are not in the now, we are in the future.  We are not open to the possible outcomes; we are forcing things to go according to our… plan, our expectations.  We can have an intention, a sense of direction, but we should be open to what’s to come and not expect anything.   Expectations that we impose on others is even worst I think, like a parent expecting his or her children to fulfill there expectations, or a partner from his/her partner, etc…  I know for one thing I refuse to feel oblige to fulfill anyone’s expectations from now on.  I have imposed that on myself way to much, way to often, and rarely because of someone else, but because of me, my sense of needing to please.  So I hope that from now on I have learned this lesson and will let go of that need.

During my reflection periods I questioned myself a lot on where to go when I come back to Canada, and I think I have decided.  First I know I want to come back to Canada, I love being close to family and friends.  I know I will travel the world again, but I love my country, my culture, and further more the people around me.  I also recognized that the part of me that didn’t want to go back to Montreal was afraid of going back to my super social lifestyle and loosing myself again.  I now know that it won’t be the case.  My time with myself is too important, and I realized that I often end up spending time with friends out of habit, out of routine or even out of fear of not being invited again if I say no, losing my friendship, etc…  Of course my last two years in Ottawa-Gatineau was not as social, but then again, I was with François when not with friends.  I did spent more time with myself, and did like it, but I am not sure if I really appreciated it the same way I have in the last few months of my travel.  Of course the last few months were just about me, which was quite different for once in my life.  I also understand that when I left Bell and became a massage therapist and yoga teacher I started a journey of self discovery, and my travelling time allowed me to dig deeper and deeper everyday.  After all I have been working all summers since I am 12 years old and been working full time since I am out of college; this break was a luxury, but also a gift well deserved.  All that to say that I am now ready – not just yet – to come back to Canada and I am pretty sure I will settle in Montreal. 

Being in a foreign country has forced me lots of silence, and lots of reflections.  I have spent time with other travelers, but not as much as I would have in the past.  I feel in love with myself, with being with me, with not having to consider anyone else, with becoming a bit selfish, and I loved every second of it!  I have to say that I never felt lonely and never missed home since I have left.  But now thinking of finding me a place to live and/or to work out of is a nice project, a nice idea that I can look forward to.  Montreal is also easier then anywhere else I could of think of, like Vancouver for example or Moncton.  Starting a new clientele in any other city would be much harder and it would take more time before I start to make money then in Montreal.  Also, since I am not recognized for my massage out of Quebec, it would be harder to build a clientele in an other province and might even force me to go back to school, which I don’t feel like investing financially for that just right now.  If I am going to be anywhere in Quebec I think Montreal is the place to be for me, where I have a network, lots of amazing friends, and I love this city.

So I might take a room, an rent a place to work out of to start, and then eventually find my own place, or if the price is right, I will find myself a little place to live and work out of.  One thing for sure is that I don’t want to go for any extra expense just to have a nicer place or location.  I want to go for the minimum expense version for now and put money aside for my next trip… South America here I come!!!  I also want to get involved with the Native American community, to learn energy healing from them, to get in touch with the great heritage of our country.

As I feel the end coming near, I am more and more ok with it.  I have accomplished what I didn’t know I left for, I have become whole.  When I left I was feeling somewhat of a “spiritual” calling, a need to go deeper with my massage, yoga, “healing” for others.  Now I know I needed to heal myself before I could help others better.  I also have let go of many fears, I have learned about the world a bit, I have learned to take care of my needs, to meditate, to go inside, and to be alone.  I have also seen other fellow humans be content with very little, I will never take my comfort for granted again, and I will never look at the little tasks of my everyday life the same way.  I now know, from experience, that I am lucky and blessed to live in the reality that I live in at home.

Before concluding, I want to take the time to say thank you to all of you who take the time to read what I write, especially to all of you who take the time to send me feedbacks.  It has stimulated me to continue and on the long run has allowed me to develop a great pleasure to share my thoughts.  Some of you said you were inspired by some of my reflections, I was touched each time.  Thank you for caring, thank you for being in my life, thank you for inspiring me!  I would not write as much and not do it the same way if I was doing it only for me.  Like they say in India, sharing is caring, and I care that you care.

A few pics from the retreat center.  I was not allowed to take pictures during the ten days, so I only took a few, early morning, on day 11.  After that we left the center to go to breakfast 1.5 km further, where the temple is located, and I didn't come back for more pics.

For walking meditation, nice little path.

The pond was a nice spot to get inspired, mediation or walk around.  Plus in the morning it was the forground of the sunrise.





The meditation hall, we had a mini mat under us and a few cussions each to make ouselves comfy... somewhat comfy for meditation and listening to the talks.



The hot spring, look closely, this banch is in the water, which was around 102 degress F.  HOT!!!  Good to release tention in muscles after long periods of sitting!

Other point of view of the hot spring.


Lots of love your way,
Blessings and beat wishes!

Metta!
Happy Charles

March 12, 2011


PART ONE - My ten days meditation retreat...  in a few words

I have to start by saying it will be a challenge to put into words, by writing, that experience.  I will also start by saying it was amazing, I am happy I have done it, I certainly will do something similar again, and I think it was the best time to do it in my travel journey.  It was certainly a challenge, at time, yet for ever I will remember some powerful moments experienced in these ten days.

So on the 28th of February I showed up sometimes around 1PM to the retreat center to register and “secure” my spot for the next ten days. It all started with a document to read, which somewhat explained how the next ten days would be.  Then we had to get a face to face interview with a monk or a nun in who emphasized the fact that it was not going to be easy, that we would only get two meals a day, and that we would be sleeping on a wooden bed, with a wooden pillow, and no fan in our room (30 ish degrees Celsius during the day, with humidity, cooler at night, yet still warm).  After that we got the ok to pay, get our room, go unpack, walk around until tea time, and then a first get together to talk about the next ten days and be sent to bed around 8 PM with a bell signaling the beginning of the silent period.  I have to say that I was somewhat nervous during the day, getting there, and I did get a certain… tightening of the whole body when that bell rang the first night.

The bed… well, a picture is worth 1000 words so here is a picture of the room, bed and wooden pillow that I was going to use for the next 10 days, and 11 nights.  



Not as bad as it looks actually.  The pillow was somewhat bearable when lying on my side but I mostly slept on my back, since the bed was also wood, so I ended up using a sweater that I folded.  As for the bed, we were given a blanket that I used under my body, it was hot enough anyways, and I used my silk sleeping bag to keep from the mini breeze of the later night when it would almost get cooler.  The first night was the worst, getting to understand the limitation of that bed versus my body, that on the side I had to bring the shoulder forward in order to not squeeze it between my weight and the hardness of the bed, and that on my back I had to be mindful of how I would rest my sacrum, whish was directly on the wood, with a mini layer of skin in between the bone and the wood. But I have to admit I got use to it, it was not that bad, I actually slept pretty well.  Now the fact that we would get up at 4 am and go back to bed only at 9:30 pm also contributed to the sleeping well on such a hard surface.

Food was simple, vegetarian only, yet good.  In the morning, at 8 would get a rice soup, with a little bit of vegetable in it, raw leafy veggies on the side, like cabbage, salad and other leafy greens that I didn’t really know, bananas, and weak green tea.  For lunch at 12:30, we would get brown rice, one or two kinds of cooked veggies, again the raw leafy veggies and either something sweet or a fruit, and weak green tea.  For “diner” at 6 pm we would get soy milk, chocolate soy milk or a sweet fruity tea.  We would be excited when it was chocolate soy milk of course!

So 4:30 am every morning we would have someone from the group who would read an inspirational text, we could sing up for morning reading on day one, which I did of course and read the text on day 10.  After that we would meditate for about 30 minutes until yoga class at 5:15.  From day three on I decided to do my own yoga practice, we had a hall for those of us who would prefer that rather then joining the group with a teacher.  Since the yoga that was thought was more of a beginner level I opted for my own practice.  So yoga from 5:15 to 6:45, then 15 minute to watch the sunrise, and then back to the meditation hall for instruction, inspirational talk (instructions on the first few days, then more of inspirational talk) for about 30 minutes, then meditation until 8.  After breakfast we would each have chosen a chore on day one, so we would go do our chores, and then had free time until 10 am.  I chose cleaning the men’s bathrooms of the main meditation hall, which was a great choice because it would take about 20 minutes to do, then I had the rest of the time to walk around on the beautiful property, have a mini nap, or enjoy the hot spring, which I did most of the time.

I really enjoyed watching the sunrise every morning, especially where we were, it was rising behind two medium size ponds, with a row of banana trees behind them.  We could see the reflection of the sky in the ponds when a bit cloudy, it was majestic every morning, like a painting being painted before our eyes, the clouds changing colors on the background going from dark black/blue to bright light blue in a mater of a few minutes, then the sun would show up, directly in our face, passing from red, to orange to yellow to bright white.  And to top it off, nature was waking up with it, different kinds of birds taking there first flight of the day, singing to glory of the morning light, it was very inspiring.

From 10 to 12:30 we would gather in the meditation hall to get instructions, inspirational talks, sitting meditation, standing meditation, and go for walking meditation.  It was kind of divided in blocks of 30 minutes so we never would have to sit for too long, but we could always remained sitting instead of standing or walking meditation.  I opted for walking meditation most of the time, day 8 and 9 I did longer sitting periods of sitting still, which was hard on the body.  An intense pain in the middle of my back got quicker to form and make itself felt everyday, getting harsher as the sitting meditations would succeed one an other from morning to night.  But apparently it is all part of the process; you just have to trust that the body will be ok with you enduring it.

LUNCH, I was always excited for lunch.  It meant that half of the day was done, it meant I would quenched my hunger on certain days, because two meals a day was easier by the four but the first few days I was hungry, and it meant an other break until 2:30 and an other hot spring session.  I was also always excited to see if we would get something sweet, and was extremely excited on the few days we got watermelon or pineapple.  By day five I started reducing my food intake, to try to help with the meditation, and I didn`t know it then, but I was also preparing for day 9, which was a special day, for which we didn’t have the schedule in advance, and we found out on day 8 we would only have one meal on that day.  One big breakfast at 8:30, containing a bit more substance then our usual breakfast, more similar to our lunches was going to be served to us, and soy milk for lunch, and chocolate soy milk for diner.  It was actually pretty ok for the whole day, yet I was dying for food by the morning of day 10!

From 2:30 pm to 6 pm we would have 1 hour of instructions and or inspirational talk and or teaching on Buddhism, 45 minute of walking meditation 45 minutes of sitting meditation and 45 minutes of chanting.  Day 8 no more talk, only meditation, and day 9 was complete silence all day with periods of both sitting, and walking meditation.  I loved it actually, was quieter.

Evening was quick, after tea and hot spring we would regroup for 7:30 for 30 minutes of sitting meditation, then we would do a group walking meditation around the pond, then 30 minutes sitting again, and head out for bed.

That could somewhat rap up the schedule and activities, all that in complete silence of our part except during chanting, where we would chant but not talk.  We started being a group of 114, I don’t know how many finished actually but we last a few players from day 4-5 and on.  Also, some people started to “cheat”, reading, taking notes, even chit-chatting here and there, skipping a practice here and there, so on and so forth.  I bothered me for a day or two, but then I let it go, and used it to motivate me not to quite, not to cheat… except a few notes taken here and then as of day 5, stuff I really didn’t want to forget, thoughts or “insights”, stuff I wanted to share and take away as learning.  But for the rest I was pretty good and committed.

So the silence part was certainly the easiest part of it all.  I guess after over five months of traveling mostly alone, not talking most of my days, that prepared me well for it.  The schedule was a bit harder for the first two days, following the clock, back in a world where time exists.  The bed was hard, but not so hard to sleep on it, like I said before I guess I was tired enough so it helped.  But meditating was hard.  It was hard to sit for long periods of time, because of the pain caused by stillness, being sitting on the ground, and to stay mindful for long periods of time, from sitting to walking, to standing, to sitting again, always keeping the mind quiet during all of that.  Maybe because I was not talking at all, maybe because I wanted to “succeed” at meditating during these ten days, not sure, but my mind was running, was noisy and busy more then when I would sit to meditate regularly during my travel of the past few months.  It was also a new technique, a new approach to meditation for me.  I did have my few moments of calm and a few moments of quietness, but not the brake through that I had … expected.  Which was also part of the problem may, expectations, it is the greatest enemy of meditation.  I was at least comforted on the last day when I shared with a few people to realize I was absolutely not the only one.  Still I am walking out of there with having gone through the longest period of meditating up to now, I am happy and proud of that.  I also have the certainty that I was to continue meditating regularly for all its benefits.


That's it for now, but more to come soon... (to be continued!)

Metta all!
Charles

March 11, 2011

I am ok... no impact in Thailand

Hello, just a quick note to say all is good here, no impact of the earth quake, I am alright.  I will post the recap of my retreat soon, got out yesterday, it was great, loved it!

Take care!

Metta!

Charles

February 27, 2011

Tomorrow, 10 days retreat... infos on my last few days... pics!!!



I was reading Osho today, he talks about non-violence and non-possessiveness, and how it is perceived in the western culture versus the eastern culture.  Religion teaches us non-violence and non-possessiveness as a “commandment”, yet the old vedic texts teaches it a bit differently.  Not being violent toward others is actually a selfish thing to do, which in this case is a good thing.  Hurting anything or anyone else has a direct impact on ourselves, thus we shouldn’t do it for our own good.  What goes around comes around, thus we will attract violence if we are violent.  Furthermore, it affects our vibrations, our energetic state, thus our health and our physical self on the long run.  So it should be all about not hurting ourselves, not about the others.  I like it.  It makes us more responsible for our own actions and thoughts; furthermore it is about taking care of ourselves, not about fear of God.

I have spent the last three days in Bangkok, it is a big city but I just love it!  Walked a lot, visited a few new areas, did a hug shopping mall, went to the movies, eat soup like crazy, read and took a few pictures.  It was a beautiful three days, the weather was nice, I loved it but now I am ready for a small town for the last night before my retreat.  So I am now on my way to Chiaya, a little town, near the temple where I will go for my meditation retreat.  It shouldn’t be to “touristy” since they guide says it is mostly visited by the tourists that goes to the meditation retreat, one or two days before the retreat, which is only  once a month.  I can’t wait to see this little town, but right now I am enjoying the train ride from Bangkok to Chiaya, 8 hours.

The train ride was beautiful, so different that the trains in India.  Comfortable seats, coffee and snack in the morning and lunch were served, plus there actually was someone taking care of informing us of the coming station.  For those of you who have traveled by train in India you will know that you have to start looking at each station names, unless you have the list of the coming stations, as of the time you should arrive.  But the train is never on time, so you end up waiting for your station for a few hours sometimes.  Today, on a 8 hour ride the train was only 20 minutes late, and someone took care of telling me I needed to get off.  So in the comfort of my seat I could read, sleep, look at the scenery.

I am now in Chaiya, beautiful little town, I love it.  Very traditional, unchanged by the tourist, most people don’t speak English, only one hotel, I love it.  It is quiet and nice.  I bought a watch, lost mine, and for something very similar that I shopped in Bangkok at prices around $60 I paid $5.  They are all copies anyways, no warranty, and not sure if the waterproof really works.  So I am happy I waited to get one!

This will be my last post until I come out of my 10 day meditation retreat.  I actually can’t wait to be there, to feel it, to learn about meditation, Buddhism and about myself even more.  After that, I will start to think about coming back, I will do the last few things I feel I need to do to complete this journey before heading back home.  Home, it has become an interesting concept after such a long time gone, and no real “home” to return too.  I have come to call home wherever my backpack is, and did feel like home in many cities that I have visited, even when all my references from home were missing.  I am somewhat hopping to have a bit more clarity about what to do next, where to go, etc… during or after my retreat.  Up to now I have a few options, so I am lucky that I have so many possibilities, and such good friends that are offering there help on my return.  Again, life is good to me, I am thankful, I feel blessed with such loving people around me!

Enjoy the video of my last few pictures, singing off until the 11th or 12th of March, you can send me good vibes during that time, I am sure not all moments will be easy.  Can’t wait to write about it, and share my … insights.

I wish you all an amazing 10 coming days,
Metta,
Charles


 Vian Vieng, Lao, I could have spent years in this town; it is so beautiful, filled with tourists, yet quiet, small and in the middle of a paradise.  It is surrounded by mountains, and a river flows next to it.  One of the activity in this place is to go “tubing” along the river, in a big tractor tube, going down 3 kilometers of river.  It was beautiful, especially the scenery along the river.  It is such a tourist attraction at this point; there are bars all along the riverside everywhere with big sounds systems, water slides, jumping platforms, and swings at many of these bars.  It takes a bit of the magic of the scenery away, but it adds another dimension to the experience.  I was with a few people that I have met on the minivan coming from Luang Prabang, it was a fun day!

I didn’t get to do the elephant ride, it was all around $70 for the day but one place that was $35, for whatever reason the two days I was there, not enough people registered to make it happen, I decided not to go for the expensive places, to keep my money for something else.  Plus I was talking to people that told me the elephant are chained up and all, which I didn’t like the idea.  Apparently some places the elephant are really well taken care of and they have “fun” with the tourists, but some places are more like a zoo.  Hard to know what you are contributing too.  Maybe I should have done it in Chiang Mai, two people told me about one place that was great and caring for the elephants.  I have mixed feelings about activities like these, like going swimming with dolphins in captivity, elephant riding, or going to the zoo.  Sometimes the animals are well taken care of and the money contributes to taking care of them and all, but sometimes it is simply a tourist attraction, a business and the animals don’t really have a good life.  Anyway, I have loved Lao, its simplicity, the quietness, the amazing beauty of nature, and its people. 

I was reading Osho today, he talks about non-violence and non-possessiveness, and how it is perceived in the western culture versus the eastern culture.  Religion teaches us non-violence and non-possessiveness as a “commandment”, yet the old vedic texts teaches it a bit differently.  Not being violent toward others is actually a selfish thing to do, which in this case is a good thing.  Hurting anything or anyone else has a direct impact on ourselves, thus we shouldn’t do it for our own good.  What goes around comes around, thus we will attract violence if we are violent.  Furthermore, it affects our vibrations, our energetic state, thus our health and our physical self on the long run.  So it should be all about not hurting ourselves, not about the others.  I like it.  It makes us more responsible for our own actions and thoughts; furthermore it is about taking care of ourselves, not about fear of God.

I have spent the last three days in Bangkok, it is a big city but I just love it!  Walked a lot, visited a few new areas, did a hug shopping mall, went to the movies, eat soup like crazy, read and took a few pictures.  It was a beautiful three days, the weather was nice, I loved it but now I am ready for a small town for the last night before my retreat.  So I am now on my way to Chiaya, a little town, near the temple where I will go for my meditation retreat.  It shouldn’t be to “touristy” since they guide says it is mostly visited by the tourists that goes to the meditation retreat, one or two days before the retreat, which is only  once a month.  I can’t wait to see this little town, but right now I am enjoying the train ride from Bangkok to Chiaya, 8 hours.

The train ride was beautiful, so different that the trains in India.  Comfortable seats, coffee and snack in the morning and lunch were served, plus there actually was someone taking care of informing us of the coming station.  For those of you who have traveled by train in India you will know that you have to start looking at each station names, unless you have the list of the coming stations, as of the time you should arrive.  But the train is never on time, so you end up waiting for your station for a few hours sometimes.  Today, on a 8 hour ride the train was only 20 minutes late, and someone took care of telling me I needed to get off.  So in the comfort of my seat I could read, sleep, look at the scenery.

I am now in Chaiya, beautiful little town, I love it.  Very traditional, unchanged by the tourist, most people don’t speak English, only one hotel, I love it.  It is quiet and nice.  I bought a watch, lost mine, and for something very similar that I shopped in Bangkok at prices around $60 I paid $5.  They are all copies anyways, no warranty, and not sure if the waterproof really works.  So I am happy I waited to get one!

This will be my last post until I come out of my 10 day meditation retreat.  I actually can’t wait to be there, to feel it, to learn about meditation, Buddhism and about myself even more.  After that, I will start to think about coming back, I will do the last few things I feel I need to do to complete this journey before heading back home.  Home, it has become an interesting concept after such a long time gone, and no real “home” to return too.  I have come to call home wherever my backpack is, and did feel like home in many cities that I have visited, even when all my references from home were missing.  I am somewhat hopping to have a bit more clarity about what to do next, where to go, etc… during or after my retreat.  Up to now I have a few options, so I am lucky that I have so many possibilities, and such good friends that are offering there help on my return.  Again, life is good to me, I am thankful, I feel blessed with such loving people around me!

Enjoy the video of my last few pictures, singing off until the 11th or 12th of March, you can send me good vibes during that time, I am sure not all moments will be easy.  Can’t wait to write about it, and share my … insights.



This second series of pics are from Nong Khai, the town accross Lao, I just never taken the time to post it!

Enjoy!



I wish you all an amazing 10 coming days,
Metta,
Charles



February 23, 2011

Just a quick note to say all is well.

I loved Lao, a bit sad to live it so soon, but happy that I am heading for my retreat.  Tonight Bangkok, then I will be making my way south to go to my retreat.

More to come soon, will upload more pics before my retreat!

Take care everyone!

Metta!

Charles

February 22, 2011


I could spend years in this town; it is so beautiful, filled with tourists, yet quiet, small and in the middle of a paradise.  It is surrounded by mountains, and a river flows next to it.  Yesterday I went tubing, in a big tractor tube, going down 3 kilometers of river.  It was beautiful, especially the scenery along the river.  It is such a tourist attraction at this point; there are bars all along the riverside everywhere with big sounds systems, water slides and swings at many of these bars.  It takes a bit of the magic of the scenery away, but it adds another dimension to the experience.  I was with a few people that I have met on the minivan coming from Luang Prabang, it was a fun day!

I didn’t get to do the elephant ride, it was not available at the cheap place, and to expensive at the other places.  Plus I was talking to people that told me the elephant are chained up and all, which I didn’t like the idea.  Apparently some places the elephant are really well taken care of and they have “fun” with the tourists, but some places are more like a zoo.  Hard to know what you are contributing too.  Maybe I should have done it in Chiang Mai, two people told me about one place that was great and caring for the elephants.  I have mixed feelings about activities like these, like going swimming with dolphins in captivity, elephant riding, or going to the zoo.  Sometimes the animals are well taken care of and the money contributes to taking care of them and all, but sometimes it is simply a tourist attraction, a business and the animals don’t really have a good life.

 Today was a slow day, no electicity in town, created a quiet atmosphere.  I went for a long walk, buy the river, took many pictures, swam a little, it was a great day!

LIfe is beautiful!
I hope you are all good too!

Charles

February 20, 2011

8 days before my 10 day meditation retreat - Pictures from Laos

Here is a video of some of my pcitures of Laos.  I have no more space on my blog for pics, so this will have to be the alternative.



8 days before my 10 day meditation retreat, I can’t wait to live that experience.  I am sure it will be so rewarding and somewhat life changing.  We should be a fair amount of people, together everyday, in complete silence.  Group meditation, walking mediation, group yoga class, and time alone in our little hut from what I get from the website.  A mini bamboo mat for sleeping and a wooden pillow, I thing this is the part I am most worried about.  I mean, I have slept on hard mats in my travels, without a pillow, (the pillows were simple to big for me, would rather not use any) and I was fine.  But a mini layer of bamboo on a wooden floor with just a neck type support in would, that can’t be comfortable, even when you are really tired.  But hey, it is all about challenging my limits, and ten days is not that long.  I have seen people sleeping on the street in India, on concrete, without a pillow or a blanket, so I will just have to think of them for courage.  Plus I am choosing this and I know I will go back to a comfortable bed after that, so I can’t complain.  It will also be 10 days without any contact with the outside world, not allowed to read, write or anything else.  Yet I can’t wait to be there, I can’t wait to live this experience, I’m really looking forward to it!

On the bus ride to Luang Prabang I have met a French couple, Joseph and Lucie, two beautiful people, traveling for six months to celebrate there wedding.  The got married after 6 years of being together, they met in China and they decided to travel from France to China as a wedding vacation.  We diner together last night and tonight, two interesting people, I enjoyed our conversations and their company.  They were all excited tonight because they are leaving for China, by bus tomorrow morning.  Back to where they have met, back to visit a part of there past, they lived there for 2 years and they speak the language, so I can relate.

We went to a really typical Laos restaurant tonight, near the river, out of the city, so quite, so nice, I loved it.  We had a Laos fondu, which is both a grill and a fondu pot at the same time, so you grill the meat and you boil the vegetables and the noodles.  It was beautiful, good and fun.  I am so lucky, thank you life for all these beautiful moments and people!


Today I took a mini van to Vang Vieng, 5 hours of a mini seat, in small spiraling roads, hot weather, and a bit of motion sickness.  Never had that in a bus, or hadn’t had that in a car since I was really young, but today was a bit difficult.  We were 4 out of 13 feeling sick, but it is ok, I`m loving Vang Vieng.

Have an amazing day everyone!

Metta!

Charles

February 18, 2011

Luang Prabang... Nouis sommes tous UN


Comme au Laos il y a un mini héritage français et que certains parle français j'ai décidé de faire ce post dans la langue de Molière!

Luang Prabang, magnigique petite ville dans le nord du Laos.  Un peu touristique, toutefois ça ne lui enlève aucun charme à mes yeux.  J’ai un superbe petite chambre, toute en bois, avec douche chaude à moins de 10 minutes de marche de la rivière et de la plage.  Demain je pars pour passer un journée en nature avec les éléphants.  On va même se baigner avec et tout, je suis vraiment excité.  Je vais me rendre vers Vang Vieng comme prochaine destinations, ensuite de retour a Vientiane pour prendre mon vol vers Bangkok.

Depuis deux jours je me questionne souvent sur ce que je devrais faire à mon retour.  Je sais que je vais passer quelques jours dans le coin d’Ottawa, y faire quelques anciens clients, ensuite quelques temps dans le coin de Montreal, je suis certain que je pourrai là aussi y faire un peu d’argent.  Ensuite je vais me rendre dans le coin de Moncton pour aller voir ce qui pourrait se faire là bas, voir Odette, une bonne amie et de la famille.  J’ai souvent l’image de Moncton, pour une raison ou une autre, ça m’attire, mais je dois avouer que Montreal aussi!  Que j’aime cette ville!!!  Par contre j’ai envie d’un coin tranquille, en même temps j’ai peur d’être loin de la ville.  Peut être Québec, un peu plus prêt de la famille, pas trop loin de Montréal, j’y ai déjà des amis... je sais plus!  C’est pas très important, je sais que ça va se faire tout seul, mais j’ai souvent cette pensée que revient.  I guess que je sens que je m’en viens bientôt!!!

Depuis que je suis en voyage je me dis souvent que nous sommes tous pareil à la base, mon enfant intérieur ne comprend pas les querelles, les guerres, la douleur que l’on se cause les uns envers les autres.  Après tout on vit tous les mêmes émotions, on aime, on a mal, on compétitionne, on gagne ou l’on perd.  On prend soins les uns les autres, on élève nos enfants, on paye nos factures, pleur et l’on rit.  Chaque religion croit dans le même Dieux même si leurs dirigeants disent autrement.  Qu’est-ce que ça va prendre pour nous unir, pour que chacun réalise que le JE n’est rien sans le NOUS.  Ce que je fais à l’autre je me le fais à moi et ce que je fais pour moi vibre vers les autres.  Nous sommes tous liés, nous sommes tous interdépendants, nous sommes citoyens de la terre.  Pourquoi le focus sur nos différences est-il plus répendu que le focus sur nos similitudes?  Chaque religion dit : « Aimez-vous les uns les autres » d’une façon ou de l’autre.  Et au nom de la religion on trace des différences entre peuples, on se fait la guerre!!!  Je ne comprends pas!  J’ai toutefois espoir!

Aimons-nous les uns les autres, POUR nos différences, parce qu’elles nous permettres d’apprendre les uns des autres, parce qu’elle nous font grandir et s’appanouir.  Emerveillons-nous les uns devant les autres POUR nos différences, soyons curieux de se découvrir, soyons reconnaissants pour chaque couleur, odeur, saveur et vibration disponnible sur notre planète.

Je suis heureux d’être différent, j’ai toutefois souvent le sentiment que nous sommes tous qu’un.